My Sweet and Sour College Life and Heart~~

Well... I thinking that I like to have some words like "Emm...", "Hmm...","Well...", "yup" and more with my messages yup~~~~ *_* That 's me~~~~ I cannot stopping to dreaming for my "Kira Yamato" but who is really going to be my First Lover and Last Lover too... I thinking maybe I will not get any answer for now even future... Because I decide to not dating even not marry too... Emm... Even a lot ppl told me that I made this pledge so long ago will not same in the future...


But I really stubborn about my pledge and nobody can change my mind even I already losing my past Love Interest --> "Athrun Zala" long long ago~~~~~~ But it not mean that I still thinking about him because my heart already broken and how I should fix it back as well... That will need a long time to fix back maybe it already cannot fix...


My world already empty and darkness too... Even I really hate to see those couple at My TARCollege and I still felling that I really lonely and always alone for online only... What I should do for my lonely life yup!? Dreaming... Dating... Marry... Hate... Famous Designer... Maybe those things to me soon to lose the meaning~~~~ And I will soon to face the death and end my hopeless life......


Well... Anyone see this message really know that big different with my old style messages yup~~~~ Because I just feeling my world suddenly darkness and I also thinking my Graphic Design classmates love to cheating me... Well... That 's really meaningless to me too...... Because I want a guy really Kind-Heart,brave,caring all around him 's ppl and more... Emm... That 's really hard to find this kind of person around me... ... Love... No more important to me... I want to bury it into the darkness place forever yup~~~~~~ I hate it so much now yup~~~~~


Hmm... I really lazy to close my online blog/diary yup... Maybe I will sometimes write somethings for here yup~~~~ At last, I hope everyone don't be sad about my diary and leave me alone at my own world too... ... I also hope everyone happy and lucky with their own life yup~~~~~~ ^_^